Why is it so?

Christmas is here again…
Laying down on my bed and sorting out my thoughts….

I realised that i no longer know how to bring joy and laughter to the people around me and even to myself.  Sometimes i cant even be bothered to create topics to share with anyone.  Simply because i’m just too lazy to say anything.
TSK! What have i become? What causes a dramatic change in me?

This Christmas, I long for something that can never be mine.
I’m spending it alone facing the empty house with four walls.
I cant even be bothered to ask anyone too.

My Dear Santa Claus….
I need your company seriously.
I need your comfortable shoulder to lean on because I’m mentally weary.
I need your lovely jokes to make me laugh so as to brighten my day.

Grant my wish okay?